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.“It wasn’t enough.It’ll never be enough.”“Your love is enough for me.She knew you loved us.”“Love doesn’t protect anyone from pain.I’ll never forget her pain…” His eyes filled with tears again begging to trickle over his red rims.We were silent again.Flashes of her on the floor passed before me again.I couldn’t even begin to imagine what had happened; how she died.Vampeens are supposed to be immortal.There are only two main ways to kill us and she didn’t die by either…“Are you ready?” he asked.“Huh?”“I’m ready Alexa.I’ll be damned if they get to you too.The only way to protect you is if I become one of you,” his voice was full of conviction.I knew he was right.He needed to be made vampire for his own protection outside of mine.“I said I’d support you.Are you sure you’re ready though?” I checked.His tears dried.I sensed the change in him.His grief was overturned by determination and maybe a desire for revenge.I didn’t hate him though.I shared the same outrage.If fate wouldn’t deliver justice then I, no we, would.“I’ve been ready.” He didn’t hesitate.He didn’t blink, cringe or move.He was firm when he said it.We both smiled at the same time.“Do you want to eat one last human meal?” I asked.“Trust me; it’s not the same after.”“Thanks sweetie, but I’m ready.”I nodded affirmatively.“Kai?”“I’ll do it but not here,” he replied immediately.“Auggy assigned two guards to you.They’re patrolling outside.” Kellan stood and peered out the blinds to check.“Do you want me to be there?” I asked but wouldn’t let him go without me.“Is it painful?” he looked at Kai.“For the first few minutes it stings.It will pass when your body sedates you.The pain makes you numb.You’ll go to sleep.You’ll die in your sleep and wake up vampire two days later,” he explained.It seemed strange hearing the timeline.It would take me a while to think of my dad as anything but human.“I would love to have you with me,” he invited me along to the biggest event of his life: his death and resurrection.One last embrace with my dad led me into another with Kellan.I squeezed him as close as possible to me and didn’t let go.All the fighting, tempers flaring over nonsense.Going through what I had, seeing the pain in my dad’s eyes; hearing the pain in his heart be screamed outwards was grueling.At the end of all of it though, it only reminded me of how much I loved Kellan.Had that have been me and him in my parent’s place; I would have been more disheveled than my dad at this point.Regardless of how tempting Kai was, fact was I could live without him.I would survive just fine without him in my life.But Kellan, I couldn’t picture my world without him.If anything bad ever impacted him or took him from me my world would collapse right at that moment.It hadn’t just been my mom to get me to this point.It’d been a combination of people in my life.And Kellan was certainly one of them.He’d guided me, taught me and even laughed at me; he’d protected me, almost died for me and continued to love me in spite of all my mistakes and mood swings along the way.I’d been foolish; ridiculous and stupid were probably more like it.I couldn’t believe it had taken my mother dying in cold blood for me to realize how much I’d taken for granted.I… she… she’s gone.She’s truly gone to be with Gran.I didn’t want to look back and regret anything with Kellan.Most importantly, I didn’t want to regret ever letting him go.I couldn’t lose him like my dad did my mom.I couldn’t lose him like my mom.My heart couldn’t handle it.I can’t handle it.“We need to go Leka,” Kai prompted.I let go of Kellan and returned to my dad’s side.I took his hand and squeezed lightly.“You’ll always be my daddy; even if you’re a vampire,” I smiled.“And you’ll always be my little girl; even if you’re over a hundred years old.”As we left, closing the door that one time was so symbolic.I was closing one chapter of my life, shutting out the past full of family memories.After school chats at the kitchen island, the endless loop of CSI on the TV at night; the special moments where I caught her looking at me in awe as all parents do.I’d miss her voice.I’d miss her I love you’s, her words of advice and praise; her hugs.Most of all, I’d miss her guidance.She was my how to, what to and when to on all things both human and vampeen.And now she’s gone; and with her everything else.Perhaps Kai was right.Maybe it was fate.Had my mother been taken from me a few months before, I wouldn’t have survived my transformation
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