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.Then the next you’re leaving me to go mess around with another girl.You didn’t just hurt me by accident.You did it purposely.And still I waited for you.I stayed in your apartment all day, waiting for you to come back.Waiting to make sure you were okay.” Lucy shoves my hands off her and stands up.She paces in front of me.I slide down until I’m sitting on the floor, unable to do anything else.I knew some of this already, but to hear it come from her mouth, to hear the pain in her voice, to see the anguish in her eyes, it strikes me so much harder.How could I have been such a cold-hearted bastard to her? To Lucy of all people.I’m sorry sits on my tongue, leaving a bad taste in my mouth.It’s not big enough.It can’t be.I’ve said it too many times now.I have to show her.I have to prove it.“I don’t know if I can spend my life waiting on you, Park.No matter how much I want to.Just because I want you doesn’t mean you’re good for me.”I shove myself to my feet and barrel into her.I back her up into the wall.I have to make her see.If I can just get her to find something redeemable in me…“I can’t take any of it back.Fuck, Lucy.I would if I could.All I can do is try to make it up to you.Prove to you that I won’t pull that shit again.I don’t want to lose you.The past month has been hell and I can never make you understand how sorry I am for putting you through this.I’ll make it my goal each day to make you happy.”Her eyes are bright with that storm that makes me weak.Our chests are rising and falling in sync.I can’t take my eyes off her.I can’t stop touching her.I can’t lose this again.“You call me Lucy.”I feel my brows draw together as I shake my head in confusion.“That’s your name,” I say slowly.“Nobody calls me that.Nobody that really knows me.My friends.If you can’t even do that, how can I believe you?”I chuckle lightly without humor.“Because, Lucy, you and I are not friends.We never have been and we never will be.” I press my body into hers and lift her chin so she’s looking at me.“We have something bigger than that and I don’t want to call you what everybody else does.When I label you with a nickname, it’s going to be mine, and only mine, to call you by.”Her mouth opens then closes, her eyes a whirlwind of emotions, and her body quivers against mine.“Oh,” is all she says.“We’ll take this slow,” I whisper against her hair.“We’ll do this right.Dates, meeting the family, all of it.I know I can never be good enough for you, but let me at least try.Give me the opportunity to show you how great we can be together.”Lucy closes her eyes.“Please don’t hurt me again.”I drop my head, leaning it into hers.“Never again.Not on purpose.I swear on my testicles.”She laughs and opens her eyes.We stare at one another for several seconds.I want to kiss her.I need to.She must see it in my gaze because she tilts her head just enough to bring our lips together.I nearly sigh at the pleasure this brings.I think I love this girl, and as much as it scares the shit out of me, I’m even more frightened of not loving her.She breaks the kiss and I almost groan.“What does this mean?” she asks.“What does what mean?”“For you and me.What are we?”I smile.We’ve been here before, but I was a chicken-shit then.She wants it clear this time and so do I.No more bullshit.I hold her face in between my palms and touch the tip of her nose with a kiss.“You’re mine.I’m yours.I want everyone to know it.”“But Jessie—”“Jessie can deal with it.If he can’t, then I’ll move.But he doesn’t get a say in this.And neither does Bree.This is between you and me.The only person’s opinion that matters to me is yours.I’ll be yours until you tell me differently.Only yours.”“You can’t take that back,” she murmurs.“You can’t flip out and take off on me again.”All I want is her trust.I know I don’t deserve it, but I will earn it.I want her to have no doubts.I want to be the person she knows she can always count on.“I may flip out from time to time, but I will never take off again.You’ll see.You’ll get tired of me being around so much.”“I’m not so sure about that.You’re too fun to look at.”“I’m even better to touch,” I say, smiling at her deviously.“And to taste.”Fuck
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