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.I stomped on the invisible floor, suspended somewhere between heaven and hell.I watched Shane run through the hallways of the hospital yelling for Gabriel.Through my tears, I set my focus on Gabriel, as he remained stoic, drinking his still steaming coffee.I ran to the table and pushing it with every ounce of strength I had, propelled it into the air.Coffee and cream flew through the air, but Gabriel stayed unaffected.I stood in front of him and dropped my eyes to his level.“Shane? Gabriel, it was Shane?”The edge of his stupid lips curled up the slightest bit, as if he was laughing at me inside.“Not really the most intricate plot twist, Grace, you should have seen it coming.”I pushed him.Of course, he didn’t move, but I pushed him again anyway.“Go to him, Gabriel!” I grabbed at his shirt and balled the material into my fists.“You are going to go to him.Then you are going to come back here and tell me what I need to do to be with him again! Put me back in that body!”His gaze stayed steady on mine.“Don’t tell me that was my one chance.Tell me the truth.For once in your existence, do what’s right, and tell me what’s going on!” I kneeled down in front of him.Gabriel gasped my face and pulled me forward, placing his closed lips on mine.He kissed me and held me there.Calmness rolled over my spirit in slow circling waves, my eyelids closed.“Selah, see the truth,” his voice whispered.“Forgive me, I’ve always loved you.”My eyes flared open; his lips still on mine.Lying in front of me was my garden.My father sat beneath the almond blossoms, waving to me in the sunshine.From somewhere behind the trees I could not see, my mother called for him.“Enoch,” she sang his name.My insides retched.How I missed the innocence.Before I knew, what evil was.I felt my heart rip in half when I saw Shamsiel calling for me along the dirt pathway near the water, touching his hands against the bulrushes.Gabriel walked alongside him, best friends, always together.My heart soared as I watched myself run into his arms.I leapt at him and laughing, he caught and twirled me.My feet tickled from the tall bulrushes that he swung me through.Gabriel stood back and watched quietly, smiling tightly.He hugged me next and brushed my hair from my face.“How blessed he is to have found you first,” he whispered.He caressed my lips with his thumb and then he left us and walked towards my house to greet my father.The touch had made the small hairs on the back of my neck stand up.Shamsiel and I walked holding hands and found a place near the waters to sit and sing.For hours, we’d sing, sometimes we played the lyre and laugh, other villagers would come to listen, we never minded; we never really noticed.I watched with bated breath, as the sun began setting and he held me in his arms to say goodbye.He looked down into my eyes with such innocent love that hot tears burned my eyes.Our lips met and I remembered how it felt falling off the end of the earth right into heaven.I saw Gabriel hidden off to the side watching us, and tears filled his eyes.Gabriel pushed me back, violently wrenching me from my heartbreaking vision.I collapsed backwards, crashing my bottom into the flipped over table.Heat spread over my cheeks, down my neck and traveled to the tips of my toes.It became hotter and boiled into rage.“Why did you show me that! Because, that Gabriel is what I’ve been punished for all these years! An innocent kiss, we did nothing more!”He moved closer to where I was sprawled out on the floor and hovered over me.“Did you ever wonder why you saw heaven in that kiss? Did you ever stop to wonder why everyone was wiped out but you?”I sat up and crossed my arms waiting.“Please enlighten me.It’s only been two thousand years or so.”The skin around his pale blue eyes tightened as if he were in pain.“We had to stop the suffering on earth, the fallen corrupted EVERYTHING! Nothing was right; nothing was whole with them here!” He inhaled deeply.As if he really needed air to breathe! “He made the oath with them.He was one of the fallen ones and he needed to be punished along with the rest of them! And I needed to get him away from you!”“His crime was a kiss!”“His crime was a kiss with you! The daughter of Enoch! Grandfather to Moses! You had pure blood in your veins and innocence branded on your soul! You were no mere human child! And now Azazel and the rest of the fallen know you exist and they all want to own you!”“Why?” I screamed.“Because you have more power than all the angels put together.When you prayed as a child, God answered.You have a will of your own, where as we can only do what is sanctioned by God!”“What does that mean?” I screamed again.“A fallen like Azazel can take over the heavens with you by his side.Any of the fallen, even Shamsiel.” He sighed, “You and your father were favored by God.”“And you thought that Shamsiel searched for me all these years to take over heaven?”Gabriel fell to his knees and hung his head low.“He never knew you existed.He thought you were escorted right into heaven.I don’t even know if he’ll believe me, he hardened himself, until he met Grace.”“Is he like me? Does he jump into dying bodies and get the ass end of life? Or what?” I snapped.“Most of his existence he was imprisoned in hell.He doesn’t deserve you, Selah.Look what he has done in his human form! He tried to erase the thought of you,” he whispered.My body turned cold.He was right.Shane was nothing like the angel I kissed that day.I had thought my heart was broken before, but in that very moment, I knew true and utter despair.How would I ever get through this?I slumped to the floor right where I stood.Gabriel sat down next to me and embraced me in his warm arms.He held me close and gently rocked me back and forth.“Stay with me and I will always take care of you, I will never hurt you.”I wanted complete nothingness.I wanted all of this to end.I had enough.“I’m done, Gabriel.I can’t do this anymore.”“You can’t forgive him for what he’s done.He is an angel, he was supposed to be the one to never falter, and the human was supposed to fail.I would have never left you, if you had chosen me.”“You know nothing of love
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